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Walks are very good. Something I've ended up doing more recently is once a month I end up going back to my old university, and I end up just, well, walking. I just let myself walk around campus for close to 3 hours, and it honestly just feels so good. Really helps to let me think things through and just de-stress from any concerns in my life.
Anyways, I'm glad that walk helped you feel better, Kaleb! Hopefully you're able to build off of it.
@Kaleb You should do those more often! Walks are an amazing way to clear your head.
The dosage for my anti auditory hallucination medication has doubled. My psychiatrist noticed I’m still hearing insults which made her make the decision. I’m still certain I wasn’t hearing things when I was at that school, but I do agree that it happens in public.
I’ve mentioned this before, but until a few months ago I had horrible self esteem. As early as age 11, I took those insults personally and ended up with a warped perception of myself. I’m too fat, too ugly, too emotionally distant. Those thoughts stuck in my mind and refused to leave.
Around when I started feeling this way (2012), I stopped eating and began to exercise at an unhealthy rate. My mind was so set on being fat that I became anorexic. Thankfully my parents caught on and got methe help I needed. What stuck was the pain I felt in my ribs. It hurt so much to weigh 84 lbs (at 4’09) that it was traumatic. From the bottom of my heart, I feel for every person that has experienced that horrible mental illness.
What got me away from those toxic thoughts was socializing and actually looking at myself objectively. I realized I cared for people. Unlike the people who picked on me, I had the ability to be kind to everyone. Even those who I wasn’t fond of.
Beimg able to look at your flaws is important, but so is pointing out your positives.
"You represent the Ground type! The Ground type is all about balance. Like the very Earth you stand on, you are careful and deliberate about your actions. Your patience is a virtue, and you rarely lose your balance when navigating tricky waters. However, you remain an enigma, Ground type. Be sure to communicate your wisdom to others, and perhaps they can assist you in turn. You are somewhat isolated due to your introspective nature. You have a strong sense of self, and are rather stubborn when forced to deviate from the course you know to be correct. Again, remember others' perspectives, Ground type. There is more to the Earth than the ground we walk on, after all."